“I lost it, yes. But I wasn’t the one who built the pressure cooker.”

I want to talk about reactive abuse — not as a concept, but as something I lived through in real time, with real consequences to my name, my mental health, and my dignity.

Because this is what people don’t understand about psychological abuse:

Sometimes, it’s your reaction that gets remembered… not the abuse that caused it.

And when that reaction is witnessed — especially by someone eager to believe the worst — it becomes a weapon. A story. A label. A reputation.

In 2023, I was still trying to save something that was killing me.

I was knee-deep in counseling sessions, desperate for clarity. Desperate for something that would help me make sense of what I was living in—because none of it made sense. One of the first counselors I saw that year tried to introduce the idea of a trauma bond to me. I’d heard the term before, but I didn’t understand it in the way I really needed to. And honestly? The way he framed it only made things worse.

More downloads coming through… the Mercury Kazimi has lit me up today. This is about the Masculine Collapse and energetic rebalancing that’s happening, and the Twin Flames’ role in that. The 144,000 have been called up all year. The shift is well in motion… I feel we are midpoint in this process though, but a crucial pivotal point no less. I’m getting completion being around 2030 with 2020 as the start point. The scales are tipping further and further back to center.